I never looked for it, but there it was. On full display, everyone chosen over me. Each dagger cut a new hole. Hearing about the relationship, all I could do was drown myself in my tears, others, and alcohol. Forever in the shadows of someone else, sometimes even my own blood, crushing the already bruised and battered heart. I had no right to feel so destroyed; he was never really mine. I tell my heart that every single night, but it still doesn’t know.
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Marked by Magic
I was marked.
It was inevitable that he would.
I never stood a chance.
The way he walked with purpose.He devoured my very being with his piercing eyes and consuming kiss.Claiming what was his.
The bond running so deeply that I can feel him in my very soul.
Burning me from within.
Drowning me with memories.
Suffocating me with endless what-ifs.
He marked me.
Leaving behind an inextinguishable flame.
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When the night falls, I fall deeper
At night, tears can drown out everything but the pain. I become hollow, so empty, and yet still somehow full of this unimaginable, heart-wrenching pain. I am utterly devastated in your absence and fear that I will forget how it feels to be held by you. I’m terrified that I will love you this deeply forever, and even more terrified that I will stop loving you over time.
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Dancing Phantoms
I had to put you down. The heaviness of loving you was an albatross, not allowing me to move forward, just floating through life. I was stuck in moments and memories so bittersweet. Phantoms with their hands around my neck were ripping my heart out. It was not because I didn’t love you, but because you didn’t care for me and I needed to shine again. Alone in this, I lost the color that made me radiate. My eyes became lackluster unless they were looking upon you, always spilling out my sea of emotions. So I had to put you down, for loving you meant dying slowly, waiting for a nonexistent train.
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My Piece’s
My piece’s are mine.
They shaped me.
Formed me
Into a broken,
Over thinking,
Guarded beautiful mess.
I never give them all to anyone fully, but for you,
You saw the most and taught me to keep them guarded more.
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One Kiss
You stole my breath.
Took the oxygen from my lungs.
Removed all possibilities of me ever being able to move through life without craving you near.
One kiss was all it took to changed my entire existence.
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The Art of Wearing Your Scars
I use to hide my tears. Tucking away all the feelings that wrecked me. Now I wear my sullen look like my warrior paint. Bathing in my pain as a reminder that loved lived here. The truth is that only love can break you so deeply. The void it leaves can’t be ignored. Stained in every part of who you are. I revel in it knowing that to live with my pain meant that I was lucky enough to feel loves warmth.
Ink Stained Soul... 