Ink Stained Soul…

There is one artist that speaks to me lyrically. It’s poetry to my soul. Captivating deep parts of me. Bringing emotions connected to someone, a place, a time when this was how I was feeling. Telling my story with her words. Inspiring me, healing me, giving me the map to set myself free.

‘Untouchable’ Taylor’s Version

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky
I’m reaching out and I just can’t tell you why
I’m caught up in you
I’m caught up in you
Untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
And when you’re close, I feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night, when I’m in this dream
It’s like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we’ll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

The lyrics are beautiful. Making me reflect on the one I look to the moon and talk about. The longing and loving. Hoping and dreaming. The fact the every night the stars spell out his name.

‘You All Over Me’ Taylor’s version (vault track)

The best and worst day of June
Was the one that I met you
With your hands in your pockets
And your ‘don’t you wish you had me’ grin
But I did, so I smiled, and I melted like a child
Now every breath of air I breathe reminds me of then
And I lived, and I learned
Had you, got burned
Held out, and held on
God knows, too long
And wasted time, lost tears
Swore that I’d get out of here
But no amount of freedom gets you clean
I’ve still got you all over me
I lived, and I learned
And found out what it was to turn around
And see, that we
Were never really meant to be
So I lied, and I cried
And I watched a part of myself die
‘Cause no amount of freedom gets you clean
I’ve still got you all over me
I’ve still got you all over me
Still got you all over me

This is devastating tragic beauty. I have felt this inside my bones. It is remarkable how it feels like she wrote this after listening me cry my heart out to my near friend. As if she took my hurt and put it into words. There is no amount of time that cleans him off me.

‘Don’t You’ Taylor’s version (vault track)

Sometimes I really wish that I could hate you
I’ve tried, but that’s just somethin’ I can’t do
My heart knows what the truth is
I swore I wouldn’t do this
But don’t you
Don’t you smile at me and ask me how I’ve been
Don’t you say you’ve missed me if you don’t want me again
You don’t know how much I feel I love you still
So why don’t you, don’t you?

I feel like a broken record but this has encompassed so many of my emotions. It’s how you mask the love you still hold for someone. How you know what’s true in your heart but can’t say? It’s always there that breath you have been holding.