When I have poured out my heart. Putting all the love I have into you and our connection because it’s how I feel. I will allow myself to move with the flow of my true emotions. Becoming a vessel of authenticity. Honoring my soul as yours calls to me.
I will see us in the stars. This love to shine as brightly as a full winter snow moon. Cutting through the darkness. Letting the light fill me until I am overflowing.
It’s when you break it down. Dishonor the bond. Reject it. As you choose paths and patterns to hurt. I dim. It is slow. You never fully see the lights draining until it’s too late.
My smile doesn’t reach my eyes. Your touch doesn’t soothe me. I won’t respond as quickly or how I once did. I no longer crave you. Your voice doesn’t have the same affects. I become more involved in my own world. I care little about what you are doing or if we see each other. My secrets become my own again. And after I forgive myself for pouring into another that didn’t deserve my heart, I will disappear.
When I have moved forward, healing as I let you go. I am no longer the dreamy girl that loved you because of your soul. No. Your choices tainted who you really are.
When that becomes obvious, I leave the stars to ground myself in who you chose to be.
And so I am a leaver. My feet don’t belong on the ground. I’m meant to dance in the stars around the moon
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