Ink Stained Soul…

It finally happened.
I needed you.
My nerves were so bad I was shaking.
My anxiety sending me back into flight or flight.
A dark place that I have a hard time escaping.
My safety in question.
I feel like I’m back to that summer when I reached for you to only find silence.
The reminder of my place.
Reality.
I have no right to feel hurt but I do all the same.
I feel something different though.
I feel like I needed to see it.
I needed to have the slap across my face to wake me up.
It’s okay.
I’m okay.
I realize I have given you a responsibility you never asked for nor wanted.