Ink Stained Soul…

You never made me promises.
Yet you knew you had my heart.You knew I loved you.
You knew what you did that made me fall and that you kept doing it.
My heart wasn’t broken all at once.
No it was slow.
Small cuts.
Some larger gashes along the way.
I can’t even be angry because it was just as much my fault as yours.
I don’t know if you even did it in purpose or you were busy protecting yourself.
What does it matter?
Bruises formed and healed.
Wounds reopened over and over until I no longer had the strength to walk towards you.
Parts of me dying.
The line flattening.
I went from I hope I never lose you, to stop you are losing me, to you’re the loss of my life.
Grief, never ending grief of something that never was.
Tears enough to drowned the earth still spill even this night.
Hope lost.
Darkness my familiar friend.
There is no account of it except what the moon knows.
You are still my favorite chapters of this life.
You always will be.
I will keep my promises.
That’s who I am.
I will love you everyday but I will do it how you trained me from afar.

Music: Taylor Swift (Taylors Version)

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