Ink Stained Soul…

What you didn’t know… In those months of silence,is that I was drowning. Lost in darkness, the emptiness swallowed me whole. I sat outside night after night. Unable to speak, my voice not working. A constant flow of tears, sometimes accompanied by sobs that even the rain couldn’t drown out. Broken deeply, over and over. Each day the same. Heartache I had never known. Weight falling off of me. I was dying slowly. The knowledge of that relationship, the deafening sound of your silence—my executioner. When the color finally started to come back to my face, I stood and looked at myself. A warrior, significantly smaller in frame, with dark circles and a broken smile. But there was a smile. I had survived. I lived through the loss of what we could have been. I loved through your rejection of me, while I knew you chose another. I saw the broken smile and the color, and I loved who I was. I didn’t need the validation of being yours any longer, because I never was.

Songs: Taylors Version

‘Sad Beautiful Tragic’

‘All Too Well’ 10 minute version

‘My Tears Ricochet’

‘Cardigan’

‘Maroon’

‘You All Over Me’

‘Exile’

‘The Moment I Knew’

‘Last Kiss’

‘This is me Trying’