Do you go there too, in the depths of the night?
Where we walk on a plain far out of sight.
Are you aware, can you feel it, do you even know?
That our souls meet night after night where everything grows.
There, you are mine and I am yours.
When morning comes I’m still teethered by our silver cord.
Sparkles dancing across the smooth Indanthrone blue waters.
A whisperer of air swirling around as if knowing to be gentle.
The songs of seabirds singing their melody.
Smells of Floral and salt inviting me to join into the magic before me.
The sun beaming it’s warmth down.
Thawing my heart from its bruised state.
My soul is restored.
When I have poured out my heart. Putting all the love I have into you and our connection because it’s how I feel. I will allow myself to move with the flow of my true emotions. Becoming a vessel of authenticity. Honoring my soul as yours calls to me.
I will see us in the stars. This love to shine as brightly as a full winter snow moon. Cutting through the darkness. Letting the light fill me until I am overflowing.
It’s when you break it down. Dishonor the bond. Reject it. As you choose paths and patterns to hurt. I dim. It is slow. You never fully see the lights draining until it’s too late.
My smile doesn’t reach my eyes. Your touch doesn’t soothe me. I won’t respond as quickly or how I once did. I no longer crave you. Your voice doesn’t have the same affects. I become more involved in my own world. I care little about what you are doing or if we see each other. My secrets become my own again. And after I forgive myself for pouring into another that didn’t deserve my heart, I will disappear.
When I have moved forward, healing as I let you go. I am no longer the dreamy girl that loved you because of your soul. No. Your choices tainted who you really are.
When that becomes obvious, I leave the stars to ground myself in who you chose to be.
And so I am a leaver. My feet don’t belong on the ground. I’m meant to dance in the stars around the moon
They grew in my damaged womb. Gifts given to me to love and cherish. Healing me enough to have the will to survive the brutality life has thrown at me. An angel that walks the earth. A boy that loves fiercely. Teaching me understanding and patience. Living life every day with unconditional love. Giving me a purpose and path to be authentic. Making love easy and magic in every small step. My treasures. My heart. The gift of my babies.
I have lived in the shadows my entire life. Of a mother who left. A father who was cold. A sister whom everyone prefers. A brother who would rather I be dead. It spilled into relationships. Abused in every way. I was never enough to love correctly. Always just the spare.
You were always planning your next move, staying five steps ahead, plotting and scheming. But in your quest to outmaneuver the game, you overlooked a fundamental truth.
Missteps and misfortune led you down a path of deception, convincing you that freedom and success were within grasp. But the beast you sought to outsmart has tricked you into finding solace in solitude, leaving you to wander alone.
Only hindsight will reveal the true cost of your actions. Alone in the darkness, you’ll never know the warmth of love’s light.
I felt a pang of jealousy when I saw you with someone. I knew I had no right to feel that way, but the emotion lingered, leaving a bitter taste in my mouth. I tried to drown my feelings with alcohol, but it only numbed the surface. The noise and ringing inside me persisted.
I put on a mask, forcing a smile and laugh, while secretly drowning in my emotions. I managed to drag myself out of that place with dignity intact. The next morning, I made a conscious decision to shift my focus from you to me. And so I did…
Time keeps slipping by, yet one thing remains constant: my soul’s unwavering love. While changes unfold, I’ve delved deeply within myself, refusing to wait idly. Instead, I’m stepping into the sun, embracing a brand-new era.
I’m letting the universe guide me toward the love I deserve. Time may bring changes, but it won’t alter my soul’s essence or love. I’ll welcome whatever comes next, embarking on a journey that may surpass my wildest dreams.
“I needed him, not in a way that threatened my physical existence, but in a way that made life worth living. I never craved perfection; instead, I was drawn to his authentic, imperfect self. Was I attracted to him? More than anyone in this world.
It was the entirety of him that captivated me: his presence, laugh, eyes, smile, the way he spoke, his mind, and above all, his soul. His darkness was palpable, but his light – oh, his radiant light. I often wondered if he knew how brightly he shone to me.
He was my silver thread, my guiding force that brought me home. His love enveloped me in a sense of timelessness, a feeling as ancient as the universe itself. I needed him because my soul had chosen him, and for me, that was enough.
It was never a choice, just like breathing isn’t a choice. We don’t choose who our souls connect with; it simply is. And so, I’ve learned to live half alive, for without him, I’m left with no other option.”
Playlist song: Invisible String Taylor Swift
The moon and I converse, sharing secrets about the ways you drive me crazy. You force me to look within, frustrating me more often than I’d care to admit. Yet, we also discuss the depth of my longing to be in your presence, cherishing memories that are my most sacred thoughts.
The moon knows the thrill I feel when you stand behind me, your lips grazing my shoulder. She’s aware that my numbness to life dissolves the moment you set your sights on me. With your touch, fire ignites in my veins.
In the moon’s silvery light, I confide to her of the man who is bigger than the sky, feeling heard and understood with every word.
Ink Stained Soul... 